| Unalaska, A new room, and sleeping on the bottom bunk. |
[Apr. 20th, 2007|05:31 pm] |
For those of you who don't know or who don't read my myspace journal, I am in Unalaska, Alaska right now. I work on a processing barge for $7.15 an hour. When we are working I can work anywhere from a few hours a day to 16 hours a day. Although one day I did work 17.5. Right now we have been off for about a week and will head north to the open ocean to process herring in about a week. My housing and food is free. My roommate has a TV and we have free cable. I have a computer that I play Civ II on obsessively. Some of my favorite people sent me books. I have a small library of books. Yay!
I just moved from a room where I had the top bunk to a room where I have the bottom bunk. The rooms are tiny, so in my previous room if I wanted to watch TV I had to take off my shoes and climb into my bunk to do so. Now I can keep my shoes on while watching TV. Don't laugh. It is one of the coolest things that has happened to me in a while. I can also sit up in my bunk now. This is about three thousand times more awesome than it sounds.
There is a strict no drinking and no drug policy. If you are suspected of drinking or doing drugs or have an accident you will be urine tested. If you are guilty of breaking the rule you will be fired. Interesting to be sober for so long. Not sure if I will drink when I get back.
I just talked to one of my bosses and I am going to have extra work while doing herring. This means instead of working 8-12 hrs a day I will usually be working about 16. Herring should last anywhere from 10 days to three weeks. Yay! I will have some money when I get back.
I have been willingly celibate for about 8 months now. I am thinking about going a year. This will be the longest I have gone without sex since I lost my virginity. The last time I was freaking out... even though I had options around me and couldn't see them. This time I have seen my options and have declined. Coupled with my abstinence from alcohol this is the closest I have come to recapturing the monkish existence I lead until my second year of college. |
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| Fire |
[Oct. 22nd, 2006|08:11 pm] |
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Firemen are putting out a fire in the dumpster downstairs. I saw them flip it open. It was burning like mad. Makes me wonder what happened. If I had a time machine, I'd go back in time and find out. |
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| I'm a rockstar, Biznitch! |
[Oct. 15th, 2006|10:38 pm] |
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My track 'Toad' will be track of the day on Garageband.com on Tuesday, October 17th! |
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| The Hand Dance |
[Sep. 18th, 2006|10:56 pm] |
The hand dance
As I walk down these chasms,
canyons of glass and concrete,
I think of you and I
waiting for one of these
rushing monstrosities ferrying
people through this city.
I think of the time when,
our palms pressed against our palms,
our fingers playing, tracing our love on our hands,
a homeless man asked if it was a ritual we did,
or if our love guided us in this.
"We're in love," I replied,
and from the twinkle in your eye,
I knew that you agreed.
Now I reflect on what you cost me,
pleasures missed,
women I could've twisted around me,
a poet with the face of a star
who eyed me like a treat,
who entranced me with conversation,
and who would've stolen me
if I'd been willing,
two women, just eighteen,
who wanted me to tutor them in bliss,
who wanted sweaty play with me,
but that was it - they would've been
just as glad to leave my bed as to get into it.
I think of women old and ugly,
who would've shared their wealth with me,
because they found this body pretty.
I think of the ones in between,
who would've stayed with me forever,
who wanted to be my children's mothers,
who I told I had a lover.
I reflect on the times I stayed,
when leaving would have been easy,
when I could've cheated without you knowing.
Instead I rushed home to you
and imagined that home would be with you forever,
imagined that for all time,
you would be my goldest treasure.
I moved to this new place,
because I couldn't stand the ghosts of us
holding, kissing, gripping
each other as we walked,
caught in windows that waited
and flashed us at my lonely eyes.
My tears tried to wash away these images,
and I couldn't stand that strangers
driving by could see this teary-eyed shell
and laugh like hell at my strangling misery.
Now these bodies rushing by don't see
my tears or misery,
Here I can push it down until something seizes me
and I see the ghosts of who we used to be
pressing palms and smiling
our hands dancing playfully.
Even if I knew this misery awaited,
that I would be a deflated mess,
I would trade every woman I passed by
to have you only every night,
I would trade all the pleasures these women could give,
just to have my hands dance with yours again. |
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| Freedom is awesome. And a jerk. |
[Aug. 30th, 2006|11:28 pm] |
So I hung out with Freedom last weekend. We played a hell of a lot of Soul Caliber III and he kicked my ass all over the place. He was drinking beer. I was drinking his wife's wine.
We kicked each other until about 1:30 in the morning. Then I wanted some water - preferably filtered. He said that he and his wife had just run out of bottled water.
An adventure beckoned. Time to get some water! I assumed it would be a short walk since I'd seen a convenience store on the way to his house.
My assumption was wrong. We walked for blocks and blocks and I got the distinct impression we were going in circles. We started out downhill and toward the end we were headed back up hill. And low and behold we started passing the same shrubberies and the same houses.
I said, "That bush sure does look familiar."
Freedom died laughing. The bastard had led me in about a half-mile circle to get to the 7-11 that we were about 4 blocks away from when we left his house. Naturally, I jumped on him and beat the tar out of him. OK. I didn't I just laughed. It was like the old days all over again. Freedom and I out on a pointlessly long walk.
When we lived in Everett we used to have his girlfriend drive us to places in Everett about a mile or two from our homes and drop us off. On the way we were very careful not to look out of the windows. Then we would try to find our way back. We once took a "shortcut" through a very grassy area which turned out to be a golf course. We came around a corner and there was a hill with a picnic table on it. It was foggy out and an eery light was shooting up through the picnic table.
Freedom turned to me and said, "This is scooby-do x-files type shit."
The light turned out to be a streetlight on the street below. The image is burned into my mind. Great shafts of silver light piercing a picnic table and shooting into the night. Columns of light holding up the velvet sky.
Anyway we went to the 7-11 and I got some water. We woke up the next morning and Freedom and his wife took me out to breakfast. I got the Johnny Cash Special. It was faboo. |
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| Just the facts |
[Aug. 30th, 2006|04:18 pm] |
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I am living in Seattle. I have a job starting on Sept. 19th. I am couch surfing. Life is lovely, but I still miss the hell out of my ex. I wake up, realize she isn't there and am depressed for about a half hour. I gradually feel better and better as the day progresses. By the end of the day I am certain that I am fine all alone. Then I go to sleep. |
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| Not Batman?!?!? |
[Jan. 4th, 2006|07:28 pm] |
Your results:
You are Spider-Man| Spider-Man |
| 80% | | Green Lantern |
| 70% | | Wonder Woman |
| 55% | | Robin |
| 50% | | Catwoman |
| 50% | | Hulk |
| 50% | | The Flash |
| 50% | | Iron Man |
| 50% | | Superman |
| 45% | | Batman |
| 40% | | Supergirl |
| 35% |
| You are intelligent, witty,
a bit geeky and have great
power and responsibility.
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Click here to take the Superhero Personality Test
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| I have a degree in it. |
[Dec. 28th, 2005|07:11 pm] |
True English Nerd
You scored 83 erudition! |
Not only do you know your subjects from your objects and your definite
from your indefinite articles, but you've got quite a handle on the
literature and the history of the language as well. Huzzah, and well
done! The English snobs of Boston salute you. |  |
My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender: | You scored higher than 83% on erudition |
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| 666 |
[Dec. 26th, 2005|08:39 pm] |
666 plays on myspace since christmas.
$666 dollars - how much it cost my parents for my real birthday in 1975. |
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| New Song |
[Dec. 22nd, 2005|10:35 pm] |
On myspace. My arrangement of Jingle Bells. Listen to it. I swear it will at least give you a giggle.
www.myspace.com/docschwopssecretlab
gloves and myshkins
docschwop |
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| New song on myspace |
[Dec. 8th, 2005|05:42 pm] |
Santa's Forgiveness. Written, performed, and recorded by me.
www.myspace.com/docschwopssecretlab |
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| Sounds Like? |
[Nov. 14th, 2005|02:41 pm] |
I want to say what I sound like on myspace. Unfortunately, I don't have a clue. Anyone care to clue me in?
Thanks. |
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| Meme faced kid. |
[Nov. 14th, 2005|01:57 pm] |
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If you read this, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want, either good or bad. I promise not to come after you with a fork, either way. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your LJ and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you |
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| The Missing Me is missing even less |
[Nov. 7th, 2005|03:28 pm] |
The Missing Me has been mixed again and is up on myspace. I think I got it right this time.
www.myspace.com/docschwopssecretlab
and it really is already up. There will be no messing around this time. |
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| Intelligent Design |
[Nov. 6th, 2005|01:42 pm] |
I've just been reading about Intelligent Design Theory. I have to say I am so unimpressed by the proponents. What a bunch of morons.
I liked the idea of Intelligent Design when I first heard of it. God guiding evolution? That would sure explain why some mutations express easier than others in laboratories. Wow! You could combine evolution with scripture - because god blowing life into dust sounds a lot like life just sort of happening in the primordial ooze. Nifty Theory!
Then I got into a little discussion about it with a liberal guy who was about ready to kill me by the time we got done talking about it. I had yet to hear any of the theories I just thought it sounded neat. Not teach it in the schools to little kids neat. But kind of this-could-be-explored-a-little-more neat. The liberal really flipped out at me when I started in with my own arguments, I assume because they were good and he'd only heard the actual arguments in favor of ID which are completely stupid and absolutely without merit.
Skip ahead to me reading some intelligent design theories. Ouch! You have to be completely stupid to support these (apologies to any friends that are stupid enough to believe in these arguments).
My favorite stupid ID argument is the watch analogy. You find a watch in the woods. Because of the complexity you know someone built it. No. I know someone built it because I live in society and I've seen a fucking watch before. Furthermore, if you follow this theory to its conclusion, anything complicated enough to create something must have a creator and that creator must be complicated enough to have a creator and on the same way forever. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid argument. Requires a universe with infinite gods. What fun would that be? I don't want my god having a god.
I just read another really dumb one though. Irreducible Complexity is the name of the theory. Actually, the real theory is somewhat engaging: there are certain biological systems that are very complex and can't work with any part taken out of the system. But the version of the argument I read had this completely stupid analogy comparing the face on mars (randomly generated by computer correction real world phenomenon) and the faces on Mount Rushmore (designed then painstakingly created). The analogy claims that since the face on mars is pretty simple and not too complex it is easy to see that it could be created randomly. The faces on Mount Rushmore however give away the fact that they were designed by their complexity. Then the argument makes the jump to DNA and claims that DNA is complex too, and therefore must have a designer.
Of course this argument unravels if you go any direction with it. If god did create everything, then he would have created the face on mars by creating the surface of mars then creating humans who created the computer which corrected for the low resolution picture and created the face. So this face isn't random. All the faces in the analogy were created by a creator.
If god didn't create the face on mars, what exactly did god create and what did he leave up to chance. How do you test for this?
Argument by inquiry: what is the criteria for determining whether something is complex enough to be created by god? Supposedly there is a formula for this but the article I read seemed to imply that it was too much for my little brain to handle so I'd jest better trust the "ID scientists"
Coming Soon: How the real scientists and their proponents are acting like jackasses in the debate. |
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| saw this coming |
[Nov. 3rd, 2005|07:04 pm] |
 | You scored as Batman, the Dark Knight. As the Dark Knight of Gotham, Batman is a vigilante who deals out his own brand of justice to the criminals and corrupt of the city. He follows his own code and is often misunderstood. He has few friends or allies, but finds comfort in his cause.
Batman, the Dark Knight | | 83% | William Wallace | | 79% | Captain Jack Sparrow | | 71% | El Zorro | | 71% | Neo, the "One" | | 71% | The Terminator | | 67% | Lara Croft | | 58% | Indiana Jones | | 54% | The Amazing Spider-Man | | 54% | James Bond, Agent 007 | | 50% | Maximus | | 42% | </td>
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